Thursday will have been one year ago since I saw my positive pregnancy test. Last night I was waiting to feed Solomon after I gave him his medicine and I re-read my journal from last Fall. I was in such a different place and state of mind then. I was writing about the Farm Revival blog and how I wanted it to succeed, plans of a huge garden, an old farm truck and a Rocio Romero home. After reading the pages that were littered from the "Artist's Way" 3 pages a day challenge, it abruptly changes to "I'M PREGNANT!". I remember the anxiety, excitement and fear that hit me all at once last October 13th. I remember looking ahead with Josh that night into our future wondering who we would be as parents and what child we would have. I remember my teeth chattering and my body shaking for 3 or 4 hours after I saw the results, the adrenaline was mind numbing! It was frightening not knowing how our life would change. 

Having a baby will (or let me say, should) change you. Josh and I are completely different people now, caring more about others than ourselves and just plain grown up. I interviewed so many people about motherhood, asked a bagillion questions about scheduled feeding, sleep cycles, parenting styles, recommended reading, vaccinations, etc... and it all seemed so overwhelming at the time. You really do have a God given instinct though, it kicks in almost every moment that you need it. I love that about motherhood. All of my fears are washed away and I feel like I could have another child right now and not be upset about it one bit. I love being a mom and take my responsibility very seriously now. 

Here are my first maternity pictures taken by Amanda Watson. I was 7 weeks pregnant and pushed my "ice cream" gut out to make me look 3 months pregnant.
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Almost a year ago

October 11, 2011

Thursday will have been one year ago since I saw my positive pregnancy test. Last night I was waiting to feed Solomon after I gave him his medicine and I re-read my journal from last Fall. I was in such a different place and state of mind then. I was writing about the Farm Revival blog and how I wanted it to succeed, plans of a huge garden, an old farm truck and a Rocio Romero home. After reading the pages that were littered from the "Artist's Way" 3 pages a day challenge, it abruptly changes to "I'M PREGNANT!". I remember the anxiety, excitement and fear that hit me all at once last October 13th. I remember looking ahead with Josh that night into our future wondering who we would be as parents and what child we would have. I remember my teeth chattering and my body shaking for 3 or 4 hours after I saw the results, the adrenaline was mind numbing! It was frightening not knowing how our life would change. 

Having a baby will (or let me say, should) change you. Josh and I are completely different people now, caring more about others than ourselves and just plain grown up. I interviewed so many people about motherhood, asked a bagillion questions about scheduled feeding, sleep cycles, parenting styles, recommended reading, vaccinations, etc... and it all seemed so overwhelming at the time. You really do have a God given instinct though, it kicks in almost every moment that you need it. I love that about motherhood. All of my fears are washed away and I feel like I could have another child right now and not be upset about it one bit. I love being a mom and take my responsibility very seriously now. 

Here are my first maternity pictures taken by Amanda Watson. I was 7 weeks pregnant and pushed my "ice cream" gut out to make me look 3 months pregnant.
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Comments
Amanda Watson:

Oh my gosh, I can't believe it's been a year!!!! What a whirlwind!

(10.12.11 @ 08:51 AM)
Jen Amato:

Sweet post Lauren! You guys are so blessed to have Sol in your life! Love following your journey!

(10.13.11 @ 07:39 PM)